Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Diary of a Wimpy Mom...

Before I start my post, I want to encourage all of you to visit the Mom-Tastic blogs that are sponsoring the "Wonder Mom Wednesday" Link up:
This Mama Runs for Cupcakes
Mom Who Tris
and Mom Swim Bike Run

This week our 11 year old daughter started middle school.  I have to say I was concerned about it.  She is a special kid.  Of course I am biased, but I truly believe it.  She is kind, gentle, and loving towards others.  I admit there was a part of me that thought all of that would be ripped away in middle school.

But then I got real... and prayed.  I listened.  I heard God whispering to me.. "she's never done anything to make you doubt her level of confidence in who she is, what she stands for, and what is important to her.. so why are you already doubting her?"

That really got me.  Here I was doubting someone who has never done anything to make me lose faith in her or distrust her.  

I actually had a conversation with her, and apologized for my doubt, even though she was totally unaware.  I wanted her to know that I had every faith in her, and that I would always be her champion.

I am so grateful for the peace that God gave me once I turned all my worries and doubts over to His hands.  I cannot believe I let myself get so distracted by untruths and things that hadn't even happened yet.

For all of you who have kids returning or starting school... I am praying that you too will experience peace.  Here's to our awesome kids!

Your Sole Searching Sister,

Saturday, August 9, 2014

Prepped and ready

Here are just some of things that my runaway mind has been mulling over while on vacation...

-Our daughter starting middle school
-Turning 40 this month
-Training for 2 half marathons this year, and one early next year
-Pursuing my Bachelor's full time this fall
-Learning how to be a full time student, after just leaving a position that I held for over 6 years

After a few tears and lots of prayer early this morning, I was reminded while reading my morning devotion, that I have been preparing for each and every one of these things.  My rational mind realizes and acknowledges that just because I have prepared, there is no guarantee that things will go as planned.  However, being prepared does provide peace in the interim.

Maybe I am a control freak, yeah.. I might be.  But I am really trying to let God be in control.  I know He is, He is truly.  I'm not, as much as I think I am sometimes.  So let's look at the list above and face them one by one (believe me this is for me, and if you are still reading this.. God bless your little heart.)

- Middle school.  What did I think of my experience? It wasn't all bad. 6th grade was pretty cool, 7th  and 8th were about discovering my first crushes and fostering amazing friendships, oh and New Kids on the Block.  One thing I know for sure, my daughter's relationship with God and her faith is way more developed than mine was at her age.  I cannot tell you how grateful I am for that.  Right now, her favorite things to do are play with her dolls and create fun things out of empty boxes.  I know that will change, way sooner than I would like, but for now, I am savoring every single moment.

-Turning 40? So far, I have never felt better in my life.  I am taking charge of my health, have been since 2009.  I feel awesome most of the time.  Do I like the dark circles under my eyes, no not really.. but hey, one of these days maybe I will purchase some concealer.  I am totally grateful for 40 years on this planet.  I know amazing people, have love in my life, and got to be a Mommy.  Thank you God.

-Training.  I love it.  Am I the fastest? Do I have amazing lungs? No.  But I do it, day after day.  I am committed.  That to me is an accomplishment that I can be proud of.  It's mine.  I love the culture of it, love training with friends, and the races are so much fun!!

-School.  Sometimes I am scared.  Sometimes I wonder if this is the right choice.  But then I allow myself time to fantasize about having my own first or second grade classroom, and I remember yes, this is what I have always wanted.  So this will be hard.  It will not be easy.  Being a Mom, wife, part time employee, and student will be a balancing act, but with God's strength and the support of my family and friends - it can and will be done.

This month feels like a crossroads in my life.  All good things.  Major changes for all of us.  But I am choosing to look forward with an attitude of gratitude and anticipation.  I have been preparing myself for what is to come, but also look forward to new opportunities for growth.

What in your life do you need to prepare for? What changes can you make now that will give you peace of mind in the future? Is it health related? Job related?

Whatever it is, give yourself the gift of preparation.  Put the work in now, and one day you will thank God you did.

Your Sole Searching Sister,

Friday, August 1, 2014

I am...

Today I wanted to share with you my thoughts on self talk and motivation.  I can only truly speak for myself and how my own journey has been affected by my self talk.

There was a time when I was younger that I put limits on my abilities through negative self talk or thoughts.  In my own head, I would blame others for what they had or what I didn't have going for me.  I thought that maybe I did not deserve good things or experiences.

I cannot tell you when or even really why the truth finally clicked for me.  But it did.

Here is the truth as I know it to be true...

There are no limitations, only possibilities.

But.. you have to be willing to work hard, believe that you can do it, and trust that you are more than able (Ephesians 3:20.)  We need to stop being victims of our own negative self talk, and begin taking real responsibility for our lives.

Whether we want to believe it or not, somewhere, someone out there sees you as a role model.  It's true.  We all have someone that looks up to us, and we may never even know.  But your life, your choices.. they affect someone, not just you.

It's time that we take this seriously.  It's time to begin speaking life over ourselves and our families/friends.  It's time that we take ownership of our lives and really be intentional with our thoughts and our words, and stop making excuses as to why we cannot.

Today, I encourage you to make a list.  A list of all that you are (allow yourself to get over the initial discomfort you may feel in doing this.) Try hard to leave off your roles - like mother, wife, sister, teacher, etc.  This list is to get you to stretch outside of your comfort zone.  See yourself how God sees you.

Start the list with these words.. I AM, and then fill in the blank.  If you are comfortable, post your list as a response to this blog post.  I want to cheer you on.

I will get the ball rolling..

I AM... kind, caring, loving, and dedicated.

Your Sole Searching Sister,