I had to do it. It had been the object of my focus, a time consumer, and major distraction. It wasn't necessarily a bad one, but why did I feel guilty for it?
I am talking about Facebook. There is nothing inherently wrong with Facebook. I mainly used Facebook to post scripture, inspirational quotes, news about my family, photos of what we were up to, and to connect with my far flung family and friends. But for some reason, as I went to bed on Mother's Day this year, something clicked for me. I had the thought, "I am giving too much time to Facebook."
So I decided to delete it off of my phone, and not post anymore. I have been on facebook for several years. It was recommended by a friend, back when facebook had "flair" buttons. Remember those? I enjoyed reading about my friends lives and finding out what everyone was up to. That part was great. What I wanted to really examine was "why" I posted when, and what I did post. What was my motivation?
I am still figuring all that out. But I can tell you that I have much more time to get things done without checking facebook, as much as I used to! I never really thought it was all that important to me, but I guess it really was. Now, I make time for my school work and baking with my daughter.
Please don't get me wrong. I do not blame facebook. There was nothing with being on facebook. I just had to give myself some time to think about why I spent so much time on it. It was stolen moments here and there; sitting in the car pick up line after school, waiting in line at the grocery store, etc. I look back and think, what in the world did our Moms do while they were waiting? Did they smile and strike up a conversation with someone in the line behind them? In the car pick up line, did they look out the window at God's creation?
I am not sure if I will be active on facebook again. I am still thinking about it. I miss feeling connected to everyone. But then I think about it again, and realize I am still connected. Facebook is not what keeps us connected. It's love and caring and friendship. Keeping that connection alive takes more than clicking "like" under someone's post. At least it does in my mind. I want to be a person that does more than that.